Corrupt Computer,

   It's all bad my computer decided to give up on me and started acting a fool. So I had to reinstall the operating system. I lost all my work because I didn't have a backup, but that's what I get I guess for not taking more precautions. Any how, I pretty upset about the whole deal. I lost lots of homework and writing so I'm getting someone who maybe can recover these items for me.

I'll report in later I'm out!

D for me,

I feel ashamed that I did not get a good grade on my test, I got a D. I haven't been paying good enough attention. Usually I don't have to study because I have good study memory, but I don't think I read everything or else I would have gotten an A. Shame on me. I'll do better next time. This time I will take some notes just so that I can review.

Bad bad internet,

   Something is wrong with my internet it will not let me search. Not in google, yahoo, nothing. It just started today. Now I'm somewhat internet savy but that's it, I wish I knew more, I'm learning more, but I can not figure out why, why, why? So now my computer is getting a once over by hopefully it can find the problem. Before I had upgraded to XP I had anti-virus software but now its gone. Soooo I've probably been hit by a virus. I hope so at least I'll probably be able to fix it. But if not then I will have to dish out cash that I do not have. That's not a good thing.
Still waiting on this virus detection, tell you the rest later.

Test time,

I'm at school in the computer lad getting ready for a test. Hoping that I pass it, these kinds of test (CIS) I just go off what I have learned it's kinda hard for me to go over information without me actually performing that task. If I had written any notes that would be helpful. I know for next time. But I didn't get to much note taking done.

My real concern today is not the test, but my little girl. I don't officially have a babysitter for her. My mom takes care of her for now but she might be going back to work anytime (not)! But I can't necessarily depend on her all of the time. She been cooperative since I've started school but I think one day she will tell me she can't and plus she is trying to plan a vacation soon, where does that live me. Furthermore I'm on the college daycare waiting list, I'm number one and they still have not called me. I'm so frustrated with that whole process. It would be easier if I could bring her right to school with me and I could spend my break with her. I would really love that. I also appreciate that fact that she would be around other kids learning social skills, but she has good social skills already. But I don't want them to be loss in the absents of out side and people while she it with my mother.

So less just think good thoughts and hope that the daycare will call me any day now!!!!!!!!!!

Late bird no more,

   Since I've had Serenity I've been getting up pretty early and I'm not use to that. I'm a late bird, I sometimes don't go to sleep until 2am-3am and didn't wake up to 12:00. That's when I didn't have a job or anything. But now I go to sleep at about Midnight and wake up a 8am.
   Truthfully I've always wanted to be an early bird, but I guess being a late bird is just in my genetics because I get all my energy late nites. The new time wake up is giving me a better outlook on life and I really don't mind the new time change, it's more time I get to spend with my daughter.

Hello this is a little bit about me and my life,

   Just wanted to touch on myself for a minute. I'm a 23 year old mixed up black woman, meaning I don't know where my heritage lyes. I'm in junior college, Solano Community College. My major is Journalism of the new school you could say. I love writing poetry, but my mood determines if I write or not. Usually great happiness or great sadness directs my writing.
I have a little girl 10 months old name Serenity Blue. She is who I name my blog after. She is now my life and I really couldn't think of anything better then being her mother.
I have a fiance' Name Omar he is a Pile Driver, if you don't know what that is, it's a person who drives large pole of sorts into the ground to support a bridge. Omar is a great guy but we really are opposites, so it takes a lot of love.

   I use to be very outgoing but since having my little girl I've me more of a recluse. I've gained some pounds something I'm not use to, but I'm trying to find myself again. I'm hoping that writing might help get some of those feelings out there to help me recover. Now I do get out but it is mostly for my little Serenity and not for my self improvement.

The computer zombie,

   I've been on the internet and computer alot today, not to say that I'm not getting anything done because I am but it has really sucked me in today. I'm updating my outlook, working on my notary website, and fixing on my blog. So those things have keep me busy on the computer.
   Sometimes though I really get sick of it, sometimes I wish it wasn't in my life. You could say that in away I feel controlled by the power it posses. You may say what power, so let me explain...

   I don't really like writing on paper; my handwriting is sloppy and because of continuous use of the computer when I do write my hands start to hurt quickly, so in that sense I need the computer.
   Also because I write a lot of poetry, stories of sorts, and anything else that needs to be wrote I put it on the computer.
   Information, information, information... I always need it for school, personal reseach and most of it is on the net.

So the computer and internet willed this power that is undenable probably by the mass population.
I hope am not alone on this

Class then straight to a migraine
   Today I had a test in my 8:00 Polsc 1 class, I know that I passed that test, I did some good hard studying. After finishing my test I could leave so I went and handled some business. While waiting in a business office for some help at about 8:45 my vision started to blur, which I've always related with the onset of a migraine headache. I could not believe this was happening especially since I had not had one for many months.

History on my migraine Headaches:

   I've had migraine since I was 12 they started to come after I had my first menstrual cycle, who knows why but they just did. When I had migraines in junior high they were bad enough that I would need to stay home or come home if one started at school but I never saw a doctor because although bad they were manageable at home.
   Then in high school my migraines somewhat subsided and I didn't have very many. After high school I started having more severe migraines that did not permit me to take over the counter meds, instead on numerous occasions I found myself delusional in the emergency room because of the severity. I could not stand the light, noise or movement. Sometime times I would find myself in my closet at home with the door closed hoping that somebody would come to my rescue. They had really excelled after high school. So about twice a months or more I would find myself at the hospital in the emergency room. And to top it off my migraines do not just affect my head but my make my stomach nausea and most of the time I would threw up.
   So that is a little on my situation

I tried to stay calm and hope that it was just a fluke, but of course with my bad luck it was a migraine, I finished up my business quickly and headed home. By the time I had finished my business and got to the car my headache had elapsed from 0 to 6 in 10 minutes. At home I called to hospital to make an appointment before it got to worst and if that happen...straight to emergency. They fitted me in I went to the hospital and was put threw the ringer before I actually got my injection, but it was so worth it. From home to the hospital it had went to 6-9 pain in about 30 minutes and I was in some pain, baby. Waiting at the hospital was excruciating, my head felt like somebody was doing surgery on me without sedation. I tossed, turned, cried and moaned in my seat until someone came to took me back into the office. The severity of my headache are so bad I almost lose control of myself, one day I think I might go crazy with the pain I endure with these migraines. I went straight home took of every layer of clothing and went straight to bed. Of course that was one of the side effects of the injection it puts you to sleep. When I woke up I felt like a newborn baby just finishing up a nap after having suckled on her mothers tit.

Bloggar Software,

I just download this new blogger software hoping to make my blogging site better to reflect me. So I will be slowly making blog more me. It really seems like a great tool especially for those who know something about HTML.

Bubble Time,

Well me and Serenity Blue just went out to have our lunch snack time/bubble time. See I live in an apartment building and at our front entrance I have a stoop and a little grassy area which is pretty cool for an apartment. So I took Serenity outside in her high chair as I sat on the stoop feeding her and myself also trying to get some homework done. During the minute pulses during eating I would blow these bubble. Which are not regular bubbles, they are these long lasting bubble. They are so cool. So I blowed out these bubbles and they don't pop unless you touch them. So there blowing all around, never popping. It's like this magical world of bubbles.

My daughter loves those bubbles she can't get enough. She watches them frantically. Waiting for them to come near her so she can pop them. Then when she pops them she get this sticky residue on her fingers that looks like a spider web she ran her fingers threw. She laughs when their there and cries when there gone. But not actually because when the wind picks up the creep out of from brushes, trees, rocks, walls and anything else they had landed on. They rise and rise and all the bubble I have blow dance like ballerinas around me and Serenity.

I love to have that time with her, I myself really enjoy the show the bubbles puts on. We stayed outside for about an hour with those bubbles, it's almost hard to pull myself away from bubble land.

Just Another Day,

I've not been writing in my blog very much, I'm finding that school is becoming more of my life now, the homework, bookreading, journals, essays, ect. Doesn't give me much time to want to do anything else but take a nap if my daughter Serenity Blue lets me.

I thought Since the name of my daughter is now the name of my Blog I would let you see what an adorable doll she is...

My daughter Serenity Blue is 10 months old ready to be one, in this week she has started standing up and letting go, usually she holds on for dear life but now she has gain the courage to let go. I love watching her grow it's really amazing.

Well, well, well

I'd almost forgot about my dear blog. I've had so much to do and in so little time, I'm be hide on some of my class work and it doesn't look any better. I'm tired right about now it's 11:03 pm and sleep is here, I think I'm dreaming. Any how I just bought Frontpage 2002 something I've been wanting for a while and also because I have a CIS 61 class which is Web Page Design threw Frontpage it's pretty cool but the program keeps shutting down and I don't know why I just got it today. I am pissed.
I've spent most of my day trying to see if I could get this thing up and working but nothing is seeming to go right with it, so I have to go to sleep with no resolve. That pisses me off.
But you know I'm so sleepy It's irresistible now, bye.

Hello to me and anyone who might read my blog

I recently found out about blogs, my journalism teacher gave us an assisnment on find out about blogs. Found out they were right up my alley, I used to make websites and such about me and my poetry and things, so when I found out about this, I knew I probably would participate.
About me I'm a mother, finace', journalism student, notary (as of recently). I'm 23, black and hoping for the best in my life. In my blogs I'll probably be talking about my days at school, raising my daughter SerenityBlue, my relationship with my fiance and in and anything else.